Finding my Daughter

A fresh start

2009-09-06T16:44:00.000-07:00

we were all expecting you.. the webcam is ready.. food was prepared.. but u didnt come.. its Ok.. God moves in mysterious ways.

I was able to talk to you.. i felt goosebumps as i heard your voice.. after almost a year my Dearest denden i finally hear your voice.. i truly missed you..

I was also able to talk to you thru YM and my you're all grown up now and gained weight :( .. You were all praises for me.. i wish i could talk to you longer...

Thank you Lord.. you always hear all my prayers.. you may give me a lot of tough times along the way.. but at the end the rewards are there... thank you!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2009-08-21T22:38:00.000-07:00

Happy 9th Birthday Denden..

You're cruel papa just called and said if Nikki and Gino wanted to come to your birthday party at the poolside.. halata nman for the sake lang mang invite.. Bakit ngaun lang tatawag kung kelan birthday mo mismo.

Di bale anak.. nararamdaman ko malapit ka na makabalik sa Laguna. Sandali na lang.. Miss na miss ka na namin. pero hindi natutulog si lord at mga angels natin..

Happy birthday Anak... we miss u

I feel you again

2009-06-09T19:40:00.000-07:00

hi denden..

next month will be the 1st anniversary of ur kidnapping .. the day u were taken away.. i haven't seen u for a year now.. i hope though we are miles apart.. though i havent hugged you and kissed you for a long time.. you can still feel me in your heart..
mommy misses you so much.. i wish i was there .. if only i could bring back time..
but we never lose hope.. God is always in our favor .. i know we will get thru this..

i love u denden ....

Im thinking of You

2009-03-19T14:17:00.000-07:00

HI Denden,

Kamusta ka na? its been a long time since we talked.. Every night I have been praying that God would soften the heart of your papa so he would bring you back to us. Miss na miss na kita anak. Ano na ba itsura mo ngayon? Baka puro chicken joy kinakain mo diba sumisikip dibdib mo dun? Miss mo na siguro ung luto ko na sinigang hehe.

Sana maski malayo ka sa amin hindi mabubura sa isip mo na mahal na mahal ka namin. Alam ko madami sinasabi Papa mo masama tungkol sa akin, pero alam ko hindi ka maniniwala dun. 71/2 years tayo magkasama at hindi nila kaya burahin un dahil sa akin galing.

Masakit at mahirap nga lang kasi kailangan pa tayo dumaan sa ganito. Pero hindi natutulog si Jesus. Alam niya kung ano ang sinisigaw ng puso natin.. Miss ka na din ni Ate Nikki & Kuya Gino.
Sandaling panahon na lang anak... magkakasama sama tayo ulit :)

I love you Denden!

at the end Victory is ours!

2008-12-15T18:00:00.000-08:00

As i close my eyes each night, the more i crave to see you, hold you my little taba in my arms again.. But i remain calm, knowing that our dear Lord is working out something for us... i stop planning and instead I let Him do the planning for Him...

The will of God will never take you where the grace of God will not protect you..

Denden, mahirap itong pinag dadaanan natin... Siguro ito na yata pinaka mabigat na test binigay sakin ni Lord.. pero i know malalagpasan natin ito...

love na love kita anak... miss na miss na kita :(

Im Sorry Denden

2008-12-12T16:53:00.000-08:00

Dec 12, 2008 - hearing for habeas corpus

Im sorry anak you have to go thru all this. if this is the way for your brother & sister to see you again, just to be able to hold you again in their arms, to kiss you and say their iloveyou's..

As they saw you, your eyes were weary.. you were scared... you held so tight to your father's arms.. we feel he made you believe a lot of falsehoods just so you will be afraid...

Im sorry anak, wala ako magawa.. my hands are tied.. all i can do is wait for their text updates, and just cry .. coz im so far.. if only im there, all of you wouldn't have to go through all these.

As the judge asks you and you utter "kay papa".. all the more we felt helpless.. we know its not you.. we know these words were fed in your mind...

And as you leave the room, your Kuya and Ate ran towards you.. holding you tight... wishing they could bring you home.

Still i praise God for giving kuya, ate & lolo to be with you...

Hold on Denden.. this may be a long battle... but the battle is not over yet..
Just as Ate has promised you as she held on to your arms... "PROMISE DENDEN, MAKUKUHA KA NAMIN"....

We are never victims.... only VICTORS!

i love you denden

Nov 28 - 2nd Hearing

2008-11-18T11:04:00.000-08:00

It really pains me when i know na madali na ang lahat kung anjan lang ako. But i cant... Pag umuwi ako, whats next.. paano tayo mabubuhay?..

Today is the 2nd hearing.. Lolo, Ann, Nikki, Gino were all in full force. Its the enemies' turn to submit their counter pero sympre they had to defend themselves and its all pure LIES...

" Denise is happily living with me... Denise does not want to live anymore with her LoLo and Mother".... I know these are all Lies... They could say anything but i know in my heart we will all be victorious...

God promised that me and my household shall be saved... When God promises something, all we need is to BELIEVE in Him.. The enemy will try to case doubt on God's goodness to us...

Denden... we will never give up... GOD WILL KEEP HIS PROMISES!!

We love you Denden!

Oct 28 - 1st hearing

2008-10-28T10:09:00.001-07:00

Lam mo 2 nites hindi ako makatulog... kabado, excited... and finally dumating na nga hintay natin.. Habang andun si Lolo, Nikki, and Ann.. ako nsa room i cried out to God.. SPARE MY CHILDREN... tapusin na ang paghihirap ninyo... ako na lang wag na kayo... and truly God heard my cries... positive ang naging result and hopefully in the next few weeks.. mkakabalik ka na...

love u denden

Tomorrow - Oct 28

2008-10-27T10:17:00.000-07:00

Denden,

tomorrow is our day... eto na ang start.. maski ako hindi makatulog, kinakabahan.. no, im not afraid... why should i? God will be with us... this is HIS way... and i know He will be with us all the way... excited ako anak ksi ito na ang simula... soon... Denden... u will be with us...

I LOVE U anak.. and I MISS U SO MUCH :)

3 months

2008-10-22T13:22:00.000-07:00

October 23... 3 months na Denden... musta ka na?.. miss na miss na kita... miss ko na embrace mo.. kiss mo... kanta mo... huwag tayo mawawalan ng pag-asa anak... magkakasama tayo ulit.. PROMISE...

i love u denden....

not losing hope

2008-10-13T13:41:00.000-07:00

God will always find a way for us... thank u .. i was able to chat with u last Saturday i just couldnt believe it.. suddenly u were online.. My hands were shaking.. all i did was type the words "DEN" and u answered.. "hello mama c denden 2"... yes.. i know its u.. i was crying.. u r a very smart girl.. chatting is the best way u could reach out to us.. i just wanted to tell u that its true, your papa has been hiding you. We have tried to call you, contact you but they always say they dont know where u are..

But all this time i have not given up.. and truly God has shown signs that HOPE is coming.. VICTORY will be ours.. soon we will be together again...

I love u anak!

Sept 23 - 2 months

2008-09-28T00:15:00.000-07:00

Anak, 2 months na... i wanted to write a blog last sept 23 but i just feel so low, wala akong lakas.. every single day i try not to think ... pero andun talaga ung kirot.. the pain of not being able to talk to you and see you ... u must be wondering now... nasaan kami?.. iniwan ka ba namin?..

No anak, andito pa din kami. Itago ka man nila, ilayo ka man nila.. sususnod kmi at hahanapin ka namin.. konting tiis..

miss na miss na kita anak, dami ko ipapadala sa bahay mga chocolates, cookies, mga damit, sapatos, toys mo kaso wala ka dun.. pero sabi ko kay Nikki wag ubusin mga chocolates and other foods, mag tira para sayo kasi soon babalik ka na din...

we love u denden!

Keeping our Faith Alive

2008-09-12T11:10:00.000-07:00

Hi Denden,

Its been 51 days.. 2 months ka na namin hindi nakikita o nakakausap. Marami na kami ginagawa actions dont worry. Kanina kausap ko kuya Gino mo asking when ka namin makukuha. Mahirap sagutin, pero sabi ko ang importante maibabalik ka din sa amin. Si Ate Nikki naman naiisip niya kung ano gawa mo kaya. Lam mo Den2, dami ko nakikita dito mga magazaines ng Jonas Brothers, naiisip nga kita. Sgurado kikiligin ka. Pero lam ko pag anjan ka sa kanila wala nman sila alam dun eh. Denden, let us just be stronger. Madami pa tayo haharapin pagsubok along the way while the case is ongoing.. but if God is with us who can be against us. Right now, i dont entertain negative thoughts.. I know lahat ito pinagdadaanan natin is a test of faith. But at the end we will rpove as always that our God is a powerful God... He will never let us down..

i miss you anak!

AUGUST 22 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENDEN

2008-08-21T20:46:00.000-07:00

Papasok ka sa school, suot mo ung headband with big ribbon, mag cologne ka... excited ka kasi birthday mo. kikiligin ka kasi kakantahan ka ng mga classmates mo. tapos dadating pa ung mascot si jollibee...

yan sana kung andun ka sa bahay.. pro wla ka eh.. kinuha ka kasi ng makasarili mong ama. Sabagay ano ba alam nila sa bday party eh never naman sila binigyan ng ganun.

Ok lang yan anak. for 7 years tau lagi celebrate bday mo. pagbgyan muna natin sila tutal ung mga next bdays mo tau na ulit magkakasama. PROMISE.

HAPPY 8TH BRITHDAY DENDEN!...

di ko man ikaw ma greet personally, at least thru this blog ma patunayan ko sau hindi ka namin nakakalimutan.

We love you...

Ningas kugon

2008-08-20T23:46:00.000-07:00

hello denden,

i hope u could still hang on. it will take time but in God's perfect time mababalik ka din. At first madami gusto tumulong, pero habang tumatagal they lose interest until our cries for help fall on deaf ears. At the end its only your family who will do everything to get you.

im sure my little one you're very eager to see us. wondering why you were suddenly isolated. im sure hindi ka din nkakapag aral.

im so sorry denden i had to put you in that situation. Sa kagustuhan ko maiayos buhay niyo ganito naman kapalit. But be strong.. God is on our side...

IF GOD IS WITH US WHO CAN BE AGAINST US?
GOD WILL RESCUE YOU MY DENDEN... I LOVE U

I will wait 4u

2008-08-15T10:17:00.000-07:00

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you...

Denden, i just heard that song again sa radio. Remember it's one of our favorite songs? Bigla ko napicture yung face mo lagi mo gamit ung IPod nikki tapos kanta ka ng kanta...

Dont worry Denden, we're just here. Nikki, Gino, Lolo and me... we're just waiting for you to come back!

You're in my Dreams

2008-08-13T11:04:00.001-07:00

Lam mo anak, last Monday nag dasal ako hirap na hirap na kasi ako, di kta nkakausap. Sabi ko kay Lord sana magkasama tau mski sa panaginip... Pero anak di ako mkatulog, inabot na ng 4am dilat pa mga mata ko...

Last night , sinubukan ko tumawag sau pero same answers WALA DAW KAYO... so again i prayed and asked God to let me see and feel you in my dreams. 2am nkatulog ako and God answered my dreams. Nkaupo daw tau denden i was holding your hands.. You were really strong, no signs of tears.. We were just talking and telling stories and the whole time I held on to your hands.. Then i woke up... It was so real i thought you were really with me.. I cried...

But i praised and thanked God this morning kasi hindi nya pinagkait na makasama kta mski sa panaginip.. I was able to feel you.... And i know Denden, SABAY TAU NANAGINIP... alam ko NAKITA MO DIN AKO....

And soon, hindi lng sa panaginip... by that time.. magkakasama na tau...

i love you anak....

20 days

2008-08-11T09:56:00.000-07:00

Denden ko.. 20 days na di pa tau usap.. miss ka na namin lahat.. Everytime we call lagi sabi nila namasyal... Wala sila alam kundi libangin ka, ipasyal ka.. but that cannot take us away from your heart.. Bakit di ka nila pinapasok sa school?.. Kasi di talaga nila kaya.. Only your mama can take risks for you..

Alam mo si Lolo kumilos na din.. Wag ka alala anak. Sandali na lang. Sabi nga nila habang bumibigat ang dinadaanan at habang dumidilim, lalo tayo palapit sa tagumpay.

Malungkot lang dahil kailangan mo pa dumaan sa ganito. Pero dont worry anak.. sandali na lang.
I PROMISE...

ahmishyu!

without U

2008-08-08T09:43:00.000-07:00

hi denden.. they wont allow me to talk to you even to your kuya Gino and Ate Nikki. Ano ba karapatn nila? They have held you captive like a prisoner.

17 days ka na din na stop sa school. Yan ba ang good father? hindi ka naman nila enroll to other schools.

wag ka alala anak.. konting panahon na lang..
kakampi natin si God diba.. mahal na mahal ni God ang bata lalo na katulad mo..
He will rescue you !

we miss you

the RESCUE

2008-08-06T13:44:00.000-07:00

Nikki together with a DSWD social worker, 2 policemen, 2 barangay tanods tried to rescue you,Denden. All along we were made to believe that you were not in your dad's house of evil. Immediately Nikki texted me that she saw you.. I cried denden... knowing that you were there..
I had high hopes that you will finally be reunited with Lolo, Nikki, Gino and Ate Anne.

But I guess it was not yet the right time. You were surrounded and guarded by the evil ones. Ate Nikki insisted to at least hug you... And she saw you.. covering your face with tears falling... Just hugging... you were not able to say anything..

DENDEN.. mahal na mahal ka namin... Andito lang kami... Hndi ka namin iiwan...
Round 1 pa lang anak... Si Paquiao umaabot 5 rounds... pag si Lord, mas mabilis nya mapapatumba ang mga kalaban natin...

hang in there!

God is in Control

2008-08-05T10:05:00.000-07:00

My dearest denden,

I know this is very hard for both of us.. Be strong.. Have faith... As long as my heart is beating, we will never stop finding you. Your Lolo, Ate Nikki and Kuya Gino have done their part. Madami pang dadating na tulong. We just have to trust JESUS. Im sure before your birthday, AUGUST 22, uuwi ka na. And just like what i promised you will have your dream.. a JOLLIBEE party in your classroom.. PROMISE... God will never forsake us...

I LOVE YOU ANAK!

13 days without u

2008-08-04T09:37:00.000-07:00

AHMISHYU... i miss those words. everytime i would call and talk to you those are the first words that come out..

I really miss you Denden.. 13 days na.. wala kami news about you..Hndi ka namin nakakausap.. dati lagi tayo chat ... ngayon maski chat wala pa.. everytime i open my Chat i was hoping to find a message from you.. "MAMA I MISS YOU hehehe"...

Denden nasaan ka ba?..

Sana maski wala ka at tinatago ka ng tatay mo, maramdaman mo na hinahanap ka namin.
Nararamdamn ng puso ko na hnahanap mo din kami pero wala ka magawa.

Puso ng ina at ng anak ang magdudugtong sa atin Denden...
We love you and we truly miss you....

In Search of my little girl

2008-08-01T14:20:00.001-07:00

Just like any OFWs, we have our own stories to tell. I never imagined that one day I would be doing a blog about my life. Being a single parent and hoping to earn more abroad, I left my 3 kids in my father's care. Everything was ok until their father learned that I was not in the Philippines.
Last July 23, 2008 my daughter - 7 years old going 8 on Aug 22. Grade 2 was taken away by his father who has history of drug addiction and violence. Unfortunately until today Aug 1.. 8 days have passed and no news about them. Her other siblings have not seen her or have heard anything from her.

We have tried talking to other people for possible actions but I think money here matters... its all about money..

Does my father being a grandparent have the right to file a case since I am not there and the father is unfit?

I do not know...
It only breaks my heart everytime I think of my little Denise... wondering where she is.. where is her mama... where is her kuya and ate and lolo...

Hold on my dear one..
We will find you....